Fire in the hole!

Last night we took my new rifle to the gun range to test her out.

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I hadn’t shot in over a year so it took me a moment to remember what went where and how to load the cartridge and everything.  We placed the target out at 100 yards, I shot four times and when it came back to us I saw the glory of…NOTHING!

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I had not hit the target even once.

Shooting my rifle was a trip!  It was so loud, and the cement tunnel we were shooting down had this crazy reverb, it was frickin’ LOUD!  Having my face so close and being able to see the flash-bang coming out of the barrel, and the wind blow back was intense.  I’m not sure I would experience the same thing if we were shooting outdoor.

It also took many shots to get used to the trigger.  It was so smooth!  There was literally no way to know when the shot was going to go off so I was pulling super slowly, but then my breathing would move the barrel and I know you’re supposed to exhale on the shot.  Eventually I started pulling the trigger more quickly and that felt better.

Jesse shot and then Dustin and the kids were there by then.  I tried it again at 100 yards and still nothing.  It was getting embarrassing.  We all took turns and then next time we brought it to 25 yards and I still wasn’t hitting it, except for one hit at the very bottom of the sheet.  Now, I knew I was lining it all up appropriately so I had Jesse try it out and he missed at 25 yards as well.  That’s when we decided there was something wrong with the sight.  I knew I wasn’t bad at aiming!

Dustin and Jesse fiddled around with both sights for a couple shots and it slowly started bringing the shots more into alignment.  Finally I took the helm again at 50 yards and hit the sheet so then at 100 yards and hit the mark over and over.  I was so happy!  It turns out I have mad skills, at least when it comes to a non-moving, no-wind-influencing target.

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Lowest shot was mine, next was Jesse’s, next two are Jesse’s while they were fixing the sight, then the top six are mine!

 

 

A new week

Monday was the first day of Ezra going to preschool that he was fairly eager to go. When we got to the classroom he went right to his peg and hung up his backpack, then got hand sanitizer, then headed over to his spot on the rug.

On the other hand, Leo is still not a happy camper.  Last night he was running a fever and didn’t want to eat or drink much.  We gave him some meds and I checked on him during the night and he was still way hot.  A few minutes later he made kind of a gagging sound so I went to check in on him again and he sat up in his crib and just started spewing.  I called Jesse to help me clean up the bed while I cleaned up Leo.  I took his temperature again and he was a little over 101 so we gave him some some more meds and put him back to bed.  It took me quite some time to fall asleep again because I was afraid he was going to vomit and asphixiate, but he was better in the morning when I checked on him.  Still has a fever and wanting to be cuddled but temp was down to 99, so that is good.

We own fish again

Jesse has been setting up a salt water aquarium again for the past couple weeks.  We started more slowly this time, let it cycle awhile before adding snails and hermit crabs.  Two nights ago we went and bought our first set of fish for the new tanks, a set of clown fish.  They are super cute and very small and are fairly dusky.  I don’t think they will be the bright orange that most people associate with clowns.  They were tank raised and know how to host so if we get an anemone they should know what to do.

Leo has been kind of cranky again the last couple days, running fevers, being pretty needy.  He wants me to hold him, then he wants down, then he wants back up again.  His two upper canines popped a week or so ago and Jesse said he saw a lower one has broken through now as well.  He’s probably working on the last canine and that’s why he’s been a crank pot.

All in all, though, the boys are pretty adorable.

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We are still moving on the house refinance.  We’ve gotten the appraisal done with, so now we’re just waiting on the underwriters.  We decided to take out more than we currently own because we want to do some upgrades on the house.  We’d like to get a new roof and central air/heat and if we have money left over I would like to get sprinklers installed and some sod laid down.  *THEN* if we still have some left, we want to get a new deck.  Our current deck is so rickety and wobbly, I hate going down the stairs.  We are kind of playing around with the idea of extending the deck out more and placing the stairs on the opposite side.  Jesse says the sun hits from the other side so it would melt the snow and ice on the stairs that build up during winter.  I don’t know why builders don’t think of those things when they putting a house together in the first place.

Ezra is now in preschool and I think he has mixed feelings about it.  Every morning he tells me he doesn’t want to go to school, and when I drop him off he’s like velcro kid.  But when Brenda picks him up she says he’s all smiles and how he had such a great day, so who knows.  He had a rough morning on Thursday.  He wouldn’t put his tablet away and come get into the car so I told him he couldn’t have his tablet the rest of the day and then it escalated so he couldn’t have Minecraft for a week.  Oh, it was a stormy scene!  I finally had to pick him up and physically carry him to his room for a time out, and by then we were late to preschool.

He finally calmed down and we talked about it and I told him he could earn back his stuff by doing things around the house to help me out.  He was really keen to earn his stuff back by putting Benny in his kennel and giving him a treat.  I was like, how is that helping me out?  And he said, “Because I’m putting Benny in his kennel!”  I tried telling him that wasn’t something I needed help with but he was really fixated on that.

Later in the day his teacher texted me a photo and Ezra was lying down under the backpack area, she let me know he was still having a rough day.  But when I went to pick him up after class was done she let me know that after she texted me she asked if he wanted to join the group and he jumped up and smiled and said he was ready to make good choices now!  (That’s something that we’re working on, making good choices.)  So he got a little note to take home with him that said he’d made his teacher happy by making good choices.  He was all smiles about that.

Keto log #1

All right, folks, I’m going to keep it very real in these posts.

I decided to start a ketogenic diet on 8.29.16.  Technically I guess you could call it a lifestyle because really I should be eating this way from now until I die, but who can see the future?

I decided to commit to the “No scale September” because it gets depressing and self-defeating if you get on the scale every morning and don’t see any movement.  When I weighed myself a few days earlier I was at 274 and I’ve hovered around there for the past couple months.  My weight has slowly gone up since I gave birth to Leo.  In fact, I think I was in the 250s soon after I had him.  No Bueno.

Because I can’t get on the scale all this month I decided to get on one final time on 9.1.16.  I logged in at 270.  I had been eating keto for four days at that time, so I think that’s a fair amount of water weight to have come off in that short amount of time.  I’m not deluding myself that it’s fat loss at this point, but I’m confident that will come later.  I’m eager for the end of the month to come so I can get on that scale!  I want to see movement in those numbers!

Last night I made cheeseburger soup and biscuits and they were so tasty!  It’s nice to know that keto recipes are all over the internet, so I should never get bored, right?  I also bought some coconut-flavored stevia drops to make desserts with later on.  On the one hand, I kind of feel like if I’m addicted to sweets then I probably shouldn’t even have the “legal” stuff, but on the other hand I think it’s unrealistic to never again have dessert.

I’ve been walking regularly in the mornings for about the last month and a half.  I feel good about myself when I’m done but man do I still not like the exercise.  My left heel has been all kinds of jacked up, making me limp pretty badly throughout the day, but it’s finally been feeling a little better these last couple days.  Sometimes I get on the treadmill and just want to give up because my foot hurts so much, but I just take it slowly and eventually it starts to hurt less and I can pick up the pace.  I’m nowhere near to running nor do I know if I want to become a runner.  From everything I read it’s really bad on your joints.  Also, at this point my belly is so big it literally hits my thighs when I run and that is super awkward and uncomfortable.

9.5.16 – Tonight I made Zuppa Toscana soup, or an approximation of it.

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The only thing I didn’t include was the zucchini and it was fabulous.  I made Ezra eat one bite of it before he could eat his PB&J sandwich and once he finally got it in his mouth he raved about it.  He didn’t want more than that one bite, but he loved it.  I actually took a video so I could show it to him the next time I make the soup so he will remember he actually said he liked it.

I still haven’t gotten on the scale, I’ve been strong!  Granted, it’s only been five days but still, every day is a victory, right?

Jesse has decided to eat keto for awhile which has been nice.  I don’t know if he’s sold on the science behind, he doesn’t like to hear that calories don’t necessarily matter, it but it makes enough sense to him that he’s willing to try.

I feel like my belly has shrunk a bit.  When I lie down in bed, my belly fat has kind of a crease in the middle instead of just one lump, and I don’t have to hoist as much belly when I turn over.  I don’t think it’s all in my head.  Come on end of September!

9.6.16 – When I woke up this morning, I could see different aspects of my belly!  When I used my stomach muscles to help get me out of bed, my stomach was differently shaped.  I’m not saying I will have lost 30 lbs by the end of the month, but I can see body reshaping happening, miniscule differences though it may be.  Exciting!

9.14.16 – Still going strong!  I put on a pair of pants this morning that I hadn’t worn since before Leo was born, and they fit fantastic!  When I was standing, that is.  Too long sitting and it would have started to bug me so I wore a larger pair of capris today, but still!

The other day I made cauliflower and ham chowder, and then I garnished it with Italian herb-marinated mozzarella balls.

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It was so good!  We are using cauliflower a lot in place of potatoes these days.  It looks kind of bland because there is not a huge color palette happening, but it was super tasty.

Then last night we made spaghetti squash topped with grilled chicken and homemade alfredo sauce.

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For breakfast today I made meat rolls.  Today’s meet is sliced black forest ham, smeared with cream cheese, one basil leaf, and a tomato slice, then you roll it up.  It’s ok but the entire basil leaf is a bit strong and the tomato is fairly watery.  Next time will probably just do the meat and cheese.

I created a menu for the next few days:

Wednesday – Pepperoni pizza, salad (using the Fathead pizza dough recipe)
Thursday – Pork roast, brussels sprouts
Friday – Cheeseburger soup, almond biscuits
Saturday – Eggroll stuffing

This way we won’t get into a rut and it will allow us to better plan meals so less food goes to waste.  I’m sorry to say we do throw out a fair amount of produce, so this should help.

 

Ridiculously bored and unmotivated

I have a new position at work.  I started training in June so it’s been a couple months and I’m well into the groove of things, though I have questions for teammates that come up from time to time.  I like my manager and I like my team.  And I have not felt so bored in ages.

Seriously, ridiculously bored.  To the point where I want to look for work at a new company but most likely won’t because who has the time to look for new work when you have a perfectly good job and the money is enough that starting over anywhere is not feasible?  So I feel stuck.  It may even out over the next few months, and after six months in a position you can apply for other departments, so I may just hold out for that.

My hours and days off are also different so we have to farm out the kids three days a week now instead of two.  We were very lucky to have a friend of Velvet’s offer to watch them and they really like her and her kids, so that part is good.  But the expenses do add up and only having two days off instead of three days really makes a difference to how I feel when my weekend is over.  It never feels long enough.

We’ve signed up Ezra for preschool this year and are now waiting back to get confirmation on that.  Hopefully sooner rather than later because I think the school year is starting in a week or two.

Jesse was verbally told that the company he is interning at is offering him a position and they’ve already started the paperwork but they haven’t had the talk about salary and benefits or anything of that, which I think is a bit odd.

Jesse has been wanting to move from our house for awhile now and we’ve entertained the idea of selling and moving to a new location, but I hate the idea of moving farther away from Velvet and her brood.  And I really hate packing up a house.  So now the tentative plan is to get a refi on the house for more than we owe so we can fix up the house a bit.  I’m talking new roof, lawn and sprinklers, maybe central air.

I also want a new van and Jesse would get the Subaru, but we’re still paying off credit cards and then Jesse’s student loans are going to start in repayment this fall so I’m not sure how feasible that dream is because then we’d have two car loans instead of just the one.  The good news is we are SO close to paying off one credit card.  I haven’t been buying new items for resell and am focusing on selling off what inventory I currently have.  I’m going to reevaluate whether I want to do the resell thing after the new year.  I mean, I’ve been in the black with that for over a year, but I hate having inventory on hand and it’s just taking up so much space in the spare room.

Ezra has found the delights of Minecraft.  He freaking LOVES that game and I find it pretty dull.  He wants me to play it with him and I have but really I have no interest.  I have a rule that he cannot play it until after noon, and that he has to practice writing his letters first.  I bought some practice paper on Amazon but he is not too keen to practice writing.  I kid you not, it sometimes takes three hours to get him to practice four lines of As.  I’m like, “You could be playing Minecraft right now!  This should only take about five minutes!”  But no, that paper is still sitting there a couple hours later.

I think the problem is that I’ll have the TV on, or he will decide to play on his tablet instead.  We need to have a rule where we limit his screen play time.  I wouldn’t mind so much if he were playing games where the object is spelling or math or something.  I guess Minecraft is ok in the sense that it’s building his creativity in that he can LITERALLY build whatever he wants in that game.  A friend at work said her daughter built a conveyor belt that produces cats.  That’s all it does.  She doesn’t do anything with the cats so she just has a crap ton of them in her land.

I finally finished That 70s Show.  I took it from start to finish.  I also rewatched Grey’s Anatomy lately, and the first two seasons of Penny Dreadful.  Now we’re going through Netflix’s Stranger Things.  It’s good but pretty creepy.

I started walking on the treadmill again and wouldn’t you know it, about three days later my left heel started KILLING ME.  It hurt so bad when I walked on it.  Yesterday morning I *almost* didn’t walk but I took it at a slow pace and slowly ratched up the speed and that helped.  And this morning when I woke up it didn’t hurt as much when I started walking!  My left calf is also strained so I think those muscles connect somehow and are just jacked up.  I should probably be stretching first but I figured walking wasn’t that much of a strain.  Eventually I need to reevaluate my eating habits as well (as I sit here eating homemade fudge) and then maybe I’ll see some movement.

I asked a friend about her weight-loss procedure she had done, the gastric sleeve, but it’s just such a permanent thing.  They literally cut like 70% of your stomach out.  I feel like if I’m only going to be eating maybe a half-cup of food anyway, I should just do that now, like I should have the willpower to just do that already and then I wouldn’t need to go through surgery.  Because I’d still have the mental emotional ties to eating that I have now, surgery wouldn’t fix that.  She was telling me that a part they take out secretes the hormones that send signals that you’re hungry, so that helps.  But my problem isn’t that I don’t get the signals that I’m hungry or full, it’s a whole other issue.  I don’t know.  Something to think about, I suppose.

In closing, I feel bored, unmotivated, slightly depressed, but still keeping on.  Keep your fingers crossed that I figure things out, will you?